I wanted to ask you. One of the few truths I've managed to take away from psychoanalysis is that everyone has "a subject who is supposed to know". They all believe there are people out there who are happy or understand the secrets of life. Some people take them to be the great writers because they are called great, some think it's the celebrities, some believe it's in the universities, some think that almost every other person has a great and fulfilling life and they themselves are the exception.
Conversly getting past the point of thinking everyone your equal is a matter of spirit. At first its your family who you think you are better than, or your immediate friends (who you are smarter or cooler than), or maybe you think you are better than everyone in your small hometown (anyone who would stay there can't be anybody of importance). Then you can even say to yourself that anyone who has success is a sell-out (those who would try to impress others at all aren't authentic). Then maybe you worship outsider art, or romanticize some past era, or become religious even...
but... you always believe in someone other than yourself. I'm not saying no one is happy because there are many who are content in their place because they compare themselves to the others they know and some who are young and can still dream that they can become the important people the "subject who is supposed to know".
This is the first big classification for people: who do they believe in.
