subject supposed to know

you say that you don't have 'a subject supposed to know'
but, don't treat this as a simple exercise of searching your mind to find someone.
I think of some relationships I've seen where the girl always turned to her boyfriend or husband and would ask him about something she didn't understand about life

"How could those people in the middle east be so cruel to one another"

I think about myself in Toronto and, though never liking the Barr Naked Ladies, getting some kind of intense thrill when seeing two of them,

you went to university and therefore must have projected some kind of knowledge upon them, not just memorized knowledge but wisdom of some kind that might help you grow (if you say you were just going to get your degree I won't believe you).

What I'm talking about is an emotional awareness that should sound like a teenage drama because it's something that begins in childhood and does evolve but it stops in different places for many people.

the lowest step would be the feeling that everyone else was like a parent. that they were strong and leading their life in a way that they fully choose and understand and the highest would be thinking that no one could teach you anything about life or human nature (though you would remain violently ignorant in much else). An openess to yourself and others that you

so either you think you are the wisest person on the earth or you think that someone else knows more than you. For example a therapist could help you, an artist can open you up to experiences that could change you, a women would make you happy.
I can't help but think that I expressed poorly last time.
Does this help? Or do you still think I'm mistaken?